Introduction
Hello I'm Hayden Voss and I have mild autism and I suffer from Severe anxiety and Depression. I created the Blog Autism Bleeps because there are times when autism overpowers my brain I guess. I had always wanted to start a blog but never really got to it until now. I worked hard to get a position as a Student Body Officer. My job illustrates that I help raise funds for the school through my ideas as well as making phone calls to nearby companies to see if they will sponsor the school. The Job title is Fundraising Director.
2020 begins soon and I wanted to start off the new year fresh. The word"Fresh" isn't my favorite word because when people say "Fresh Fruits and Veggies" some people might assume Fresh is forever but in reality "Fresh is Temporary". When i thought more about what starting off a clean slate or fresh mean't I had a headache . I prefer the term " clean slate" because I always wanted to start off new and let go of my past but because of my autism I can't forget anything long term . For example : 12 years ago, My family and I were in a car crash and I remember everything that happened including some things I didn't see but heard. I keep a small part of that crash , A Finding Nemo blanket that hung on a seat belt and it was there for 2 weeks until my parents were salvaging everything.
For years , the blanket gave me PTSD but I hold on to it because although it still hurts to hold on to it it helps me cope with change. I used to like changes because new adventures but when it involves people that I bonded with well it hurts the most. It's kinda why for years I struggled making friends and I always feared they would leave me and I would be alone . One thing that I know for sure is Friends are temporary but Family is FOREVER. Friends have ends but family NEVER ends.
2020 begins soon and I wanted to start off the new year fresh. The word"Fresh" isn't my favorite word because when people say "Fresh Fruits and Veggies" some people might assume Fresh is forever but in reality "Fresh is Temporary". When i thought more about what starting off a clean slate or fresh mean't I had a headache . I prefer the term " clean slate" because I always wanted to start off new and let go of my past but because of my autism I can't forget anything long term . For example : 12 years ago, My family and I were in a car crash and I remember everything that happened including some things I didn't see but heard. I keep a small part of that crash , A Finding Nemo blanket that hung on a seat belt and it was there for 2 weeks until my parents were salvaging everything.
For years , the blanket gave me PTSD but I hold on to it because although it still hurts to hold on to it it helps me cope with change. I used to like changes because new adventures but when it involves people that I bonded with well it hurts the most. It's kinda why for years I struggled making friends and I always feared they would leave me and I would be alone . One thing that I know for sure is Friends are temporary but Family is FOREVER. Friends have ends but family NEVER ends.
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