1 year later..... what has changed?
I gotta new therapist and I started taking my meds more regularly. Only 3 more weeks of school and then I start driving school. After driving school I can get my license, a job, and visit my friends. A year ago today, The mental health snapped my boyfriend. It started out as a regular wednesday but it was a short day due to Parent -Teacher conferences. My head started hurting and I didn't know why. I later realized it was PTSD from 4th grade. Where I got tricked by someone who made fun of me because I was "RETARDED" which turned into a fight. I tackled the idiot and the idiot sprained their ankle and I walked away with no bruises. Yet I felt guilty for how I responded to the teasing and bullying. I walk into my english class for 15 corrections and it turned into 16 corrections. I had apparently mispronounced "Amelia Earhart" and everyone made a big deal out of it and the teacher blasts the correct pronunciation in my ear and I got triggered. after the bell rang for lunch , I run into the locker rooms crying and one of my friends notices and tries to comfort me. I'm a mess and I struggle , my friend got an admin to take me to a room where I could chill out in. While in that room, The Goalie for my team AKA Spike heard I was crying and confronted my boyfriend with the help of a couple other people. Then punches were thrown and the cops got called. There was hold in place. When I calmed down and ate my lunch I was sent to class . On my way to class, Spike told me my boyfriend flipped out for no reason. That was a lie. I walk into class saying "Sorry I'm late , I was talking to the counselor" . One of my classmates said " Were you in trouble"? I said " Rough day and it's not over yet". As I got dismissed, I go near the front office and I see my boyfriend and his mom in the office with a cop. I walk outside and try to find my mom or carpool while I wait I talk to a couple of my friends. A few minutes later... as I'm walking to my car I see my boyfriend get in his car and he has a sad look on his face. I didn't think more about that day. I mostly thought of how I was going to prompose to my boyfriend a couple days before my sweet 16.
My boyfriend's story :
I got in my car and I argued with my mom and I couldn't take it anymore. All this yelling made me snap and I attempted suicide. I jumped out of a car going 40+ mph. Just before I fell unconscious , I saw someone that still cared and loved me and that person was HV , My girlfriend of almost 3 months. While in a coma , I prayed I'd get better because I wanted to see her again. I felt bad I missed her birthday and prom though but I knew when I returned I could catch up with her.
5/3/19
I show up to school with a poster and a candy that goes with it . I ask a friend if they have seen My boyfriend and they said he's not here. My heart sank and my smile vanished . As I walk to my locker to prevent myself from making a fool out of myself , I see his brother and I say" I wish he was here because I was going to ask him to prom before I turn 16 on sunday. " His brother replied " he's having a hard time but I'll tell him you missed him and who knows he might be back next week." I put my stuff in the locker and go to class feeling embarrassed. Then I go to study hall and I do some work then I request to use the therapy putty. Then I go to English class , I hand out Hi chews to my classmates and teacher. The teacher asks why and I say " My birthday is on sunday and I wanted to hand out a treat to one of my best classes and I'm sorry I snapped last time we had class ."
The following week was weird. I turned 16 and I got my ears pierced. Then I picked out my prom dress and I bought tickets for prom. I walked to my boyfriends car 2 days before prom to give his mom the poster and candy and said " I was going to ask your son to prom last week but didn't so I'm hoping he could make it to prom and I miss him". She replies " it'll depend on when they release him from the hospital." My carpool taps on the shoulder and says my mom is here. I said " gimme a minute". Then Bree , My best friend who is the cousin of my lover, asks if I'm okay and I say "No , I'm Not , I just found out he's in the hospital . She said" I'm so sorry but I don't know if he'll make it to prom. " She hugs me before getting into the car.
Those were some of the worst weeks of my life
My boyfriend's story :
I got in my car and I argued with my mom and I couldn't take it anymore. All this yelling made me snap and I attempted suicide. I jumped out of a car going 40+ mph. Just before I fell unconscious , I saw someone that still cared and loved me and that person was HV , My girlfriend of almost 3 months. While in a coma , I prayed I'd get better because I wanted to see her again. I felt bad I missed her birthday and prom though but I knew when I returned I could catch up with her.
5/3/19
I show up to school with a poster and a candy that goes with it . I ask a friend if they have seen My boyfriend and they said he's not here. My heart sank and my smile vanished . As I walk to my locker to prevent myself from making a fool out of myself , I see his brother and I say" I wish he was here because I was going to ask him to prom before I turn 16 on sunday. " His brother replied " he's having a hard time but I'll tell him you missed him and who knows he might be back next week." I put my stuff in the locker and go to class feeling embarrassed. Then I go to study hall and I do some work then I request to use the therapy putty. Then I go to English class , I hand out Hi chews to my classmates and teacher. The teacher asks why and I say " My birthday is on sunday and I wanted to hand out a treat to one of my best classes and I'm sorry I snapped last time we had class ."
The following week was weird. I turned 16 and I got my ears pierced. Then I picked out my prom dress and I bought tickets for prom. I walked to my boyfriends car 2 days before prom to give his mom the poster and candy and said " I was going to ask your son to prom last week but didn't so I'm hoping he could make it to prom and I miss him". She replies " it'll depend on when they release him from the hospital." My carpool taps on the shoulder and says my mom is here. I said " gimme a minute". Then Bree , My best friend who is the cousin of my lover, asks if I'm okay and I say "No , I'm Not , I just found out he's in the hospital . She said" I'm so sorry but I don't know if he'll make it to prom. " She hugs me before getting into the car.
Those were some of the worst weeks of my life
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