Last post of 2020 : THE WORST YEAR OF MY LIFE & I survived
2020 brought me so much pain and suffering, by far the most painful year I've ever had much worse than the last 10 years . After finding out my grandma had a few months left. I did many things that proved how strong I was. I saw myself as the most extroverted introvert. I knew I was different from everyone my whole life. Some people would say stuff like how irrational I make things turn, They say I'm more fearful than most , I kinda disagree and agree but the difference is that I've been in and out of hell my whole life. Life didn't come with instructions . The road to recovery isn't easy. There are days I'm optimistic or pessimistic or both. I found it difficult yet easy to be vulnerable when I was in hell , I had to be vulnerable so I could get out of the darkness. I came out as Genderfluid Non binary in June and I applied for my job and got accepted. Around when I came out I decided to start doing weekly vlogs on my youtube channel and I doing pretty well with them but stopped for a while because my grandma passed away and I fell into a really dark hole that was really hard to get out of . I had to go to a hospital because of my depression. Even after being in the hospital I went to a day treatment center. Throughout my road to recovery I have relapsed 3 times. My road to recovery is far from over. Anyway here is my version of a 2020 recap .
January
Jan 2nd: My grandma's last birthday before passing away on September 2nd.
First case of Covid-19 in the US
The death of Kobe and Gigi Bryant
February
First american Covid-19 death
My 1 year anniversary with my boyfriend Zachariah Bickham
Many shootings occured
March
State math contest at Weber State
Massive Coronavirus Surge and Lockdown begins
Many Covid -19 updates
April
Schools Won't return in person until September 2020
Shootings in Lebanon
Students are stressed out and everyone is stressed out
Toilet paper and other shortages due to Covid-19.
May
My 17th birthday
Masks become required
Memorial day weekend with extended family
Grandma's cancer is terminal
June
I came out as Non binary , Genderfluid, and Bisexual
Grandma starts becoming weaker
BLM protests
I got my first job at Arctic Circle
An uncle on my dad side lost his battle with depression
July
Started working at Arctic Circle
Violence surges worldwide
Got 500 likes on coming out tiktok
August
Senior year started
California fires and gender reveal started a fire
Grandma is bedridden
September
Grandma passed away on 9/2/2020
I almost died at bear lake
I shaved my head bald
Ruth Bader Ginsburg passed away
October
I was in a mental hospital for 12 days
More Coronavirus updates and surges
Masked halloween
Went to fear factory with Best friend
November
I relapsed
Traumatizing thanksgiving
2nd Coronavirus surge
Biden wins
December
Made amends with a frenemy then breaks friendship with someone really toxic
I went IOP
Stay at home orders on Xmas
This year was definitely the worst year of my life and I'm glad 2020 is over. There aren't enough words to say about 2020.
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